Waking up this morning, waking up after *MULTIPLE* and massive......events that I can only surmise were likely fluid world events, my brain crackled and flashed....with wild and eerily colored pulses of energy that flowed.....from my nerves and into the environment. (Now here is the kicker). It felt like my nerves.....within my head....were linked to, and *pulsed* nerve-like structures that were present in my room.....and branching through and over the world. (*Recalls my theories about being stuck in a mindscape, a thoughtscape, a mental plane*). Did I perceive the means by which I control the environmental weather in here??? Did I perceive proof there was no '1966', and proof that there was no 'slavery' 'era' for Negroes?
Well, let's list *some* of the events that I remember...... .
After the last post, I decided to try to sleep.... .
Something happened though as I tried to sleep, and rather than waking up to my bed, I found myself standing....and gazing upon a *MASSIVE* river rapids scene. The sky seemed overcast, and the setting was clearly a mountain setting. As I gazed upon the rapids, I noted a shirtless J...(in swim trunks).....dashing at the rocky ground / ledge area before me. I then watched at him.....jump...and hurl himself at the rapids...... . The rapids were about the fastest and most turbulent I have ever seen, and looked as if a flash flood was taking place even.... .
(*Heard the phone, got up, and noted a call from 'J' (!?!)*). (*Resumes the report*).
(*Facepalms a bit*). Me being me......, I, clad in pants / pantaloons and a shirt (???), ....slid down the rocky ledge / bank a bit....(perhaps extending my arms in a space fabric bending type manner all the while), let loose an adventurer's style holler (*grins*), and flung myself into the water........ . (*Rubs my face and sighs*). Only *after* I was in the water.....(*perceives a glowing pair of eyes as I type*)....did I ask myself..."what about rocks and objects 5hat may be in the water's path?"...... . I was *DEEP*.....underwater, deeper than I remember any river around here...being (*blinks*). Bubbles trailed upward from my body, and felt a very peaceful and calm feeling wash over me...... . For some reason, my lungs were not burning for air......so maybe I closed my eyes and relaxed.......?
What happened next? (*Sighs and feels my fingernails glowing in a vulnerable manner*) (*Feels vulnerable flutters about my tum tum area*). I guess an unexpected overworld link moment took place.... . I'll explain... . (*Groans*).... . (!!!*Feels a loving caress as also notices a floating pair of white glowing eyes overhead*).
I opened my eyes, but I was disoriented..........., I mean like initial moments of witnessing '1986' (*rubs my brow*)....disoriented... . I was underwater, had issues remembering how I got there, and utterly confused as I watched the grayish-white waters sloshing... . I had a frenetic desire to surface... . Yea, but that "me"...had *NO* *MEMORY* of 'mankind' (!!!!!!) whatsoever..... . Yea. Something happened while I was in that water...... . So within moments I found myself standing and staring.....from the *surface* of the water (!?!?!?!?)...., but as I gazed around......, clearly looking for ***somebody*** (!?!?!?!) (whaaaaaaat????????????)....(*(!?!?!?)..f
[...whaaaaaaaat (!?!?!?!).......I just heard a child-like and high-pitched inner voice tearfully say "I was so scared~~~~......" (!?!!?!)]......
......only to witness bleary subanime desolation...., (ulgh) (*facepalms*)........I (????) (hunh?) I....bawled, I mean (*shakes my head and sighs*) just sobbed and wailed....with my hands to my face like a...a little kid.... . Hysteria... . That's it? That "me" was "hysterical"..... . (*Shakes my head, noting the response I had was confirmation of the kind of quality world, gentle world, I must be from*). Looking down as I sobbed, I noticed a (!?!) little kid's body (!!?!?!) that had white skin, had past shoulder length hair, and was enrobed in a white swimsuit / leotard (!!?!!??!)....that that "me" did not find that particularly strange (*blinks*)..... . Within the literal blink of an eye..., I, after looking up again, witnessed 'J' 'rising' at the water surface which was some ways front of me......(and I didn't recognize him), and after another blink (!!!??!!!!).....I watched a red-haired (!???!??!?!) and....(???) perhaps beyond anime (???) female (???) kid / individual....kneeling and then standing on the water surface. Some ways to the left...in the distance....I saw a blue swimsuit wearing figure (who was possibly beyond anime) on the surface of the water... . Apparently having found some sign of the *specific* individuals I was looking for, that....(*blinks*) me....eased up with the drastically hysterical bawling...and calmed down. The red-haired figure approached..., approached and seemingly transformed to a taller (???) form variant. I noted the figure had white footwear, and a white leotard / swimsuit that had orange....leg ports....(*squints*)...... .
(*Worries as gazes upon screenshot*).
I gazed forward in confusion as I heard.....a familiar voice speaking to me assuringly, a gentle voice that in hindsight reminds me of Momo (!!!), but I had issues understanding...... . Did I hear words like "chiyatte" spoken....? In hindsight, seems like that "me" noted but didn't recognize Japanese....in the slightest... . Yea, anime related Japanese. The figure gently approached the kid-like me, and I was calmed.....but confused (*squints in a perplexed manner*).
A lot more things happened, fluid world event stuff I struggle to explain. During a later fluid world event, for example, I think I witnessed Aves (the South Dakota trip offering dude) change into a anime subanime headed and anime bodied Japanese XX chromosome type (*cringe*)....that tried cuddling at me (*cringes again*)...... . (*Recalls how I was trying to suggest n*noparticles....., and confusedly offering n*nopartic!e health advice during that....event......*).
What has me on full alert though, is the fact that it seems like I am about to "re-integrate" (*feels jitters in my stomach*), or / and that even *currently* re-integrating with a portion of my being that has been catatonically roaming about.....and even living a day-to-day style life in the hyperdimensional overworld..... . Me? I'm kinda nervous.
If my hunch proves accurate, some ***VERY*** wild stuff may be about to go down (*blinks*)...... .
(*Went to investigate as noted Gerald (???), Christian dude, mowing at the lawn*).
Why am I nervous?
Because I remember my actual nature. Only this me, this me...holding dearly the lessons I have learned through pain (*feels my stomach sink*)....would keep me from skipping down the street in a white-skinned kid form (likely wearing a flowy dress)....., and freely offering flowers (and / or even bars of solid G*ld and Pl*tinum) from a basket. (*Recalls at that s*x predator filled RV p*rk*)...... . I don't hate my true self, but I am keenly aware...(these days) of my vulnerabilities...... . That me...has no inner clue about evil.... . (*Shakes my head*) (*Feels my stomach sink in terror*). Yea, and acts like...a vulnerable child......... . A child from a place that has no concept of evil.
That being...going through some kind of shock conducive.....event or other resulted in this whole ordeal I have gone through..... . And whatever happened before, can, theoretically (*wince*).....happen again...... .
*Checks the news for events*.