Also, I do not want the BG author reading this, this post that is not even about that entity....(whilst yet I would still, of course, note a depressed reaction (and a reaction I never even wanted or intended) from that entity...if it werer to read at this).
I do not want a depressed reaction at this post, or *ANY* of my posts. Such reactions 'were' 'never' my goal.
Oh. About the earlier post (*blush*) (*gulps*), I was under the effects of an empathic kiss? Deep, secret, and naked emotions of mine were brought forth from icy depths and to the surface. I can accept those emotions....since they were brought forth by a real and actual divinity level hyperdimensional female. But I know celibacy works as an organizing principle, right? In any case not dating mortals....., and absolutely...never kissing....'mentally' '/' 'spiritually' '/' 'physically' diseased and deranged 'mortals'.
Know what? I am thinking the divine beings I have intermittently perceived.....may all be instrinsically celibate by nature...? (Even those in (???) relationships.
Why? Because all of them I have ever seenn act like they did not expect love nor the chance to even be loved. They all have ***BEAUTIFUL*** attitudes, and treasure..., cherish, and acknowledge.....love and relationships as ***SACRED***.....rather than trivial entitlements and 'buzzwords'
..... . They themselves, and their relationships are clean, wholesome, whilst yet having burning passion no mortal could ever match.
The pedal is supposed ro be here in a couple hours. Me? I am kinda tempted to get a camera and a tripod with which to film, but naaaaaa. Even if there were visual effects and such that could be photographed as I play, I do not think I would share them with 'mankind'.
Times, and my identity included, are way way way waaaaaaay shifted from the 2004 studying era. Me? I have no attachments to mankind, and I know it now. I do not want money. I do not want 'fame'. I do not intend to 'redeem' nor 'reform' 'mortals'. This music can not even be related to by mankind. It is not "K*nye W*st", it is not F*tty W*p, and it does not have lyrics about 'violating' 'oblivious' 'and' 'brainless' 'mortal' 'automatons'....that are 'receptive' for 'breeding'. Me? I want to set cosmic events into motion yet again with my spellsongs..
Maybe I will make a video today, maybe not, but I shall play. (*Gasps amodst feeling a loving caress (!!!) to my backside*). (*Blushes totally red*). I am not sure why she, the mysterious being who I have even recorded singing on a acoustic mandolin recording........done over a decade ago, appears / shows up when I play the themes I play........ . Lol. (*Blushingly chuckles*). Wow? She is ready too......? (!!!). (*Felt a caress to my l...leg (*gulps*)*). (*Feels my face blushing a bright red*).
K. Now I getting shy about this playing thing. I have an audience??? (*Feels my nails glowing blushfully*) =^_^=. I think I am going to warm up with StarTears today.
I'll also keep careful track of my energy levels, since for some reason, I get strained quite fast when playing spellsongs (why?????).
I have a question though? Why....after I play in many cases, I perceive a pair of intense glowing eyes (!!!) (*just saw them again*) eyes, and then subsequently perceive a loving being cuddling up to me? What explains the summoning effect? It's a mystery =^_^= ~~~....... . While on that matter, why am I finding myself cuddled so much...when yet I note mankind '***HATES***' 'at' me and everything I represent? Do only beings with objectivity and objectivity based mindsets like me? (*Seemingly heard a feminine voice reply, but I do not want to be accused of 'virtue-signaling' so I will hold writing what I heard*).
I think I am going to sweep / mop some floors, and cook some lunch / take Nootropics before playing... . I will not lie....., I am kinda nervous...*^_^*. Too, I really want a girlfriend.......(*laughs*). Lol. I had to say that, even with celibacy pledge and all. Yea, but duty is my goal and priority..... . Duty that is my goal to protect, nurture, and support those I have pledged myself to look after (*felt an intense glow around navel level*).